"So I was just over here minding my business and…"
I have always been on the heavier side.
Even when I was apparently smaller i.e. a UK size 10/12, I thought I was big so I covered it up.
These days, I am more aware of my looks for two main reasons: 1. I suddenly have a rather unsightly obvious stomach and, 2. Apparently, orobo no dey reign.
To be fair, I am not lacking attention. I am not ugly by any stretch of anybody’s imagination even when my skin is trying itself. I am a pretty girl. Not drop dead or stunning. Pretty. Looks that transcend time (my Mom is pretty too and I would just like to say that I love her to bits)
I am not happy. I want to be comfy. I need to lose at least 40kg. I want to fit in airplane seats without the air hostess fiddling with the extension or asking me if I need to move from the exit row as I might need one, I want people to know my real age, realise I am young and stop calling me Madam, I honestly truthfully need to stop eating and exercise more. And I need to free alcohol.
I wear black 95% of the time. I like the way it looks, yes. Black is also forgiving. Once upon a time, my Mom would ask (and try to convince me otherwise) why I wore so much black and we would argue to all lengths and eventually, she would let it go. These days, it appears she has given up.
Look, I know what the problem(s) is/are. I weigh more than I should. I eat and drink more than I should. I don’t exercise enough.
Breakfast this morning? A Mr Biggs sausage roll and a San Pellegrino aranciata rossa canned drink. Carbs. sugar.
Then I was in my feelings later in the day and ate fried baby hake which is like eating heavily seasoned flour and oil with a hint of fish.
But it tasted sooooo gooddd.
I don’t know if this is a cry for help or a proclamation but I know this: My birthday is in November. I need to be at least 2 sizes smaller by then.
I have 12 weeks. I need help.
If you have any ideas, REAL HELP or suggestions, please let me know. I am confused, tired, and ready to throw in the towel and I do not want my overall health to suffer for this.
Kindly note that I have no time for malicious, mean spirited advice. Best believe that I will cut you. I am not this size for you to make fun of or to feel better about yourself.
That’s what amusement parks are for.